The Les Mis show was fantastic. It was everything I had hoped it would be, and it really made the weekend a much better time. Jason and Joe were just beyond amazing. I actually find it really endearing that Jason has this gape-mouthed look of utter happiness--it's just so sincere and adorable. And Joe was being such a Jason fanboy, complimenting his singing and agreeing with any praise we gave to Jason, it was wonderful. Thank you so much for setting it up.
Cat and I are pretty lucky in that both our immediate families (our folks and our siblings) have ended up coming to terms with us. It's just older generations and extended religious family that aren't. And there's a lot of tension between family branches out where grandpa lived that I just don't want to get dragged back into even outside that (partly having to do with my gender and status as first-born of my generation--my mom will never forgive my being slighted for being female rather than male, and while I understand the sentiment I'm old enough to have gotten through grad school... it may be time to let some ghosts rest), but I do want to say goodbye to him.
My bosses will probably be all right with it. They're actually pretty great guys. It's just bad timing--I just took a Saturday off for Les Mis and requested most of my miniscule vacation time for Chicago, so now being "and I need these three days off so I can go to a funeral" feels awkward. And I just wanted them to give me a yes-or-no, not a "if you really need it we can try to make the schedule work". Because how do you define "really need it"? Blargh... If it's not out of my vacation, I will go. If it is, I will hold my own vigil for him and say goodbye in my own way.
I know the writing will come. It's just frustrating, because writing is part of how I try to deal with things and when I can't I feel like everything just keeps swimming around in my head and choking any actual coherent thoughts. But it will come. Eventually.
Thank for the hugs! They are greatly appreciated. And having someone else say it's all right to want to go to the funeral (and not be like "great-grandparents are old, they die, it's what they do") is really appreciated.
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Date: 2013-02-05 03:40 am (UTC)Cat and I are pretty lucky in that both our immediate families (our folks and our siblings) have ended up coming to terms with us. It's just older generations and extended religious family that aren't. And there's a lot of tension between family branches out where grandpa lived that I just don't want to get dragged back into even outside that (partly having to do with my gender and status as first-born of my generation--my mom will never forgive my being slighted for being female rather than male, and while I understand the sentiment I'm old enough to have gotten through grad school... it may be time to let some ghosts rest), but I do want to say goodbye to him.
My bosses will probably be all right with it. They're actually pretty great guys. It's just bad timing--I just took a Saturday off for Les Mis and requested most of my miniscule vacation time for Chicago, so now being "and I need these three days off so I can go to a funeral" feels awkward. And I just wanted them to give me a yes-or-no, not a "if you really need it we can try to make the schedule work". Because how do you define "really need it"? Blargh... If it's not out of my vacation, I will go. If it is, I will hold my own vigil for him and say goodbye in my own way.
I know the writing will come. It's just frustrating, because writing is part of how I try to deal with things and when I can't I feel like everything just keeps swimming around in my head and choking any actual coherent thoughts. But it will come. Eventually.
Thank for the hugs! They are greatly appreciated. And having someone else say it's all right to want to go to the funeral (and not be like "great-grandparents are old, they die, it's what they do") is really appreciated.